London, On reflection

Suddenly, an election that really matters

“It doesn’t matter who you vote for, they’re all the same anyway.”

Until not so long ago, this exasperated complaint at the samey nature of political parties was all-too justified. It led at least in part to the Brexit vote – a vote to really upset the status quo in the most emphatic way possible. Outside of that, if the Tories and Labour were more or less indistinguishable (both committed to a lean state with many public services privatised, a low-tax economy, open-door immigration, the EU, social liberalism, a country in which the rich get ever richer and the less well-off ever more hopeless and frustrated), then what was the point of turning out on polling day?


Well, no-one can complain of this lack of alternatives now. On Thursday, 8 June, voters really are given a choice. It’s a choice between a more xenophobic and jingoistic version of Thatcherism than even the Iron Lady would have countenanced – a Tory government effectively taken over by the far-right fringe of UKIP-ideologues. In their political gameplan, everything is justified by Brexit (the Tories eagerly seizing on a mess they created – genius.) In this scenario, we give Theresa May Tudor-like royal powers to negotiate our very own affairs in secret, away from our prying eyes, allow a wholesale repeal of legislation and replacement of it by government, bypassing Parliament (if the EU had dared the same!) and suffer even more austerity, this time justified by the headwinds created by Brexit (“there is no magic money tree”, as Theresa May told the nurse in York who had the temerity, like Oliver Twist, to please have some more).

No hope then for our over-worked doctors, nurses and teachers, no succour for the NHS, certainly no £350 million a week – that much must be clear to any last voter by now. At the same time, a commitment to a hard Brexit which would irreversibly wreck the economy more than any loony-tunes Labour government ever could, making trade costly and bureaucratic, travel cumbersome, degrading UK higher education, damaging our start-up sector, making life more difficult for our farmers – the list goes on ad infinitum. All this wrapped up in a promise to bring down immigration which even some Tories argue will be hard to deliver, and which will further harm our economy (who will look after the sick in our hospitals, who will pick our strawberries if we deport foreign workers en masse – or simply turn them off so much they leave of their own accord?) At the same time, to compensate, the Tories propose even lower taxes for rich corporations and individual to compensate for the Brexit-mess they’ve created. And on the international stage, May will continue to hold hands with “America-first”, coal-burning, foreigner-bombing, corrupt Donald Trump – a lonely vassal of the deranged and fevered POTUS.


On the other hand, Labour is for the first time in many years offering a true alternative to the status quo. Free from EU-rules, a Labour government would consider lowering VAT – the most regressive and unfair tax of them all, as it’s paid by the wealthy and the poor alike. It would freeze income tax and NI-contributions for most, while raising tax rates for the richest (who have enjoyed many years of tax cuts). It promises to end zero-hours contracts, regulate the gig economy, hire more police, end the freeze in public sector pay, re-nationalise the railways bit by bit, bring utilities into local public ownership (a model that works very well in the socialist utopia, Germany) and abolish tuition fee (remember a time when we took free education for granted? Overall, the country had less money then!). At the same time, Labour would allow all EU-citizens to stay in Europe and is realistic on immigration. On this sore point, Corbyn and his team bet on the idea that Brits don’t resent foreigners as long as they are not undercutting the local population, or using scarce public services. In ending the exploitation of foreign workers, British workers would enjoy once more a level playing field.


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Tory London: while ordinary people are being priced out of the capital,  luxury tower blocks are being marketed at international investors (they’re ugly, too).

The EU-referendum put the country at a historic crossroads. Until recently, it seemed as if we had made a choice and were therefore set on an inevitable onward course. Yes, the people had made  one decision that truly mattered – but now we could all go home: our job was merely to confirm Theresa May in office and let her get on with governing as she saw fit. The polls  looked as if docile Britons were about to do exactly that.

The election was to be a pure formality, a bit like Parliament triggering Article 50 by a vast majority. But as we approach polling day, everything has changed, and May’s coronation doesn’t seem so certain any more.

Instead, we could see the face of Britain change radically once more, harking back to the truly revolutionary governments of 1948 and 1979.

This time, it really does matter who you vote for.

On reflection

Our attitude towards young people drips with hypocrisy

At 45, I am working in what’s widely regarded a young people’s game – the media industry. As such, I am intensely aware of my looming decrepitude and the approaching brow of the hill, no matter how many selfies with my skateboard I take and other youthful shenanigans I pursue. It is not just the media which has a fetish for youth, or, to be precise, for millennials or digital natives, themselves about to be supplanted by the next cohort, Generation K (“named after Katniss Everdeen, the protagonist of the Hunger Games, who embodies many of their qualities”). What is so special about those 1990s-born youngsters? We study, promote and extol them as if having only ever known a world in which social media rule gave them a sagacity we, the dying-out analogues, lack. Yet despite this hero worship, this young generation has a tougher time of it than any other since the last world war. Indebted by tuition fees, should they be so optimistic, determined or privileged to go to university, they struggle with poor employment prospects and the prohibitive cost of housing while their parents live off the gains they made while the going was good. Not only that, this generation has grown up with – and been shaped by – “terrorism, technology and anxiety”.


 Arch-survivalist Katniss Everdeen: the embodiment of “Generation K”

This disconnect between perceived cultural leadership and economic suppression is a schizophrenic state of affairs. Perhaps our idolatry masks a guilty conscience. Perhaps it is just a cynical method to flatter them into docility and submission. For what is striking about this youth is its meek acceptance of the status quo. In Brexit Britain, their elders, with self-righteous ruthlessness, have destroyed their future as equal citizens within Europe (two thirds of young people voted Remain). But do we see an outcry, protests of young people marching in the street? While there have been some eruptions (student protests, the Occupy movement), it seems that millennials are more pre-occupied with instagramming their selfies. At the same, they are a practical lot: If there’s no work at home, they cross borders to work as baristas, even if they are woefully over qualified for the job). All this, by the way, is to say nothing of those young people outside Europe, who are even more shockingly disadvantaged. Meanwhile, oldies continue to bolster their position at the expense of their children – one need only look at the primacy of pensioners over young people in the UK. Perhaps the Millennials are merely excercising patience, knowing that what is theirs must eventually come to them by natural causes. If this is true, they may be wiser and more philosophical than I give them credit for.

On reflection

Hitler, Christ and marijuana

Today is 420 day – the 20th of April – and for those who haven’t heard yet, presumably being too busy with their irrelevant jobs, 420 is code for reefer, marijuana, weed, pot, bud, leaf, herb, ganja, smoke. It is also, by the way, the day I was confirmed into my Lutheran faith some thirty years ago: ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me’ was my chosen bible quote, and it’s a message we would all do well to remember as we are asked to hand the inhuman Tory government five more years to f*ck the people. Finally, in a weird coincidence, on this day in 1889 was Adolf Hitler born. As a result it’s quite probable, nay certain, that neo-Nazis gather to commemorate the man who is a hero to the lowest, satanic instincts of humanity while elsewhere, potheads assemble to smoke a joint or two, celebrating peace love and happiness.



But I digress – perhaps fittingly for post about “420”. For isn’t being distracted, inattentive and unfocused the mark of the pothead, the stoner, the Cheech and Chong bong suckers? Yet fret ye not, dear reader, I am possessed of the greatest lucidity and clarity, unencumbered, unpolluted and untainted by any TCH in my bloodstream: the gunk of marijuana doth not clog up the ducts of my brain. It is often said that somehow marijuana encourages creativity but I for one find it hard to see how a brain diminished, befogged or impaired can produce any work of art that requires a sharp intellect. It is also often said that the bud frees up the imagination to roam and chance upon new insights, as rare and precious as gem-stones found in mud. Yet all to often, once the state of intoxication has passed, the self-same ideas, avidly noted down in a near illegible scrawl as if they were other-worldly prophesies, seem banal and obvious: stripped pf their magic.

Perhaps, I grant, this isn’t true of the performing arts, art that happens in the moment such as music or painting. After all, with so may weed references in rap, soul, reggae and hip hop – never mind the well-known weed smoking proclivities of many jazz greats – far it be from me to deny that THC does not fire the imagination for some. I have found the same thing to be true to some degree of alcohol, but the side effects – potentially driving your car off a cliff or into a tree, being vile to your mother, making an arse of yourself in public and possibly catching a blade in the ribs – quite apart from the occasional suicide, never mind a rotting liver and brain – gave cause to me to forego this toxic tonic.

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Be that as it may, 420 has become quite the thing in popular culture. There are whole Instagram accounts dedicated to smokers’ selfies, including those of sexy, blunt-puffing chicks (do weed and sex go together?). Viceland, ever eager to show how down with the kids they are, have dedicated a whole week’s programming to the herb, even advertising their programmes with a massive spliff on a billboard in London’s Shaftesbury avenue. In places were it’s legal, celebrities talk quite openly for their love of the herb, while in places like the UK it’s all nod-nod, wink-wink – as is the case with most illicit drug consumption. The fact that weed is illegal makes it only cooler – especially as there is o real risk of suffering any consequences with the law in practice (even though the police have warned against smoking grass upon the grass today). Not only that, even Trump’s Homeland Secretary John Kelly says that weed is not a priority in the war on drugs. How times have changed!

Once, weed used to be demonised as a drug that would send people into axe-murder frenzies, taken by “otherised” groups such as Mexicans and African-Americans. Thus there has always been a racist dimension to the outlawing of the drug and, what’s even worse, the starkly unequal enforcement of drug laws. So we have come a long way indeed. Far from making the populace unruly, weed has a way of mellowing the taker out. As such, its use should be positively encouraged by all those whose political rule relies on a “meh, who cares” attitude. There might be plenty of grounds for a revolution but I have a feeling that the stoner will be just too mellow to go out into the streets and torch the local McDonald’s (especially since this is much-needed to sate one’s hunger when overcoming the munchiesTM). So, Theresa May, what are you waiting for?

The growing acceptability of weed – the admission of its relative harmlessness and low potential for addictiveness – has even led to some new thinking in recovery circles. Only recently it has been reported in the news that a weed-based rehab has opened in LA. Here, the idea is to wean addicts off much more harmful substances such as crystal meth and heroin. 12-Step purists will see this as heresy; far from solving the problem, this is seen as merely replacing one problem with another. To which objection the “harm reduction” school of addiction treatment would reply, better a small, manageable issue than a lethal and utterly destructive addiction. Yes, these may “only” be differences of degree – but if they choice is between a numb ache and raging pain, such differences may constitute the the difference between life and death.

There is no reason to assume that the 12-Step-Movement – the likes of AA and NA – will mollify their fundamental opposition to “soft” drugs or any time soon, even though in parts of the US, marijuana is now – in some cases – classed as medicine. Even if they wanted to, officially changing accepted doctrine is well-nigh impossible, requiring the consent of an obscure conference. Famously, AA founder Bill Wilson found this to his cost when he experimented with LSD as a cure for depression in the 60s – and was promptly shot down by the group’s elders.

Be that as it may, on this day, 20 April 2017, marijuana is more accepted than ever before – and whether you smoke or not, for anyone who cares about fairness in our judicial system and the freedom of individuals to do as they please so long as they do not harm anyone else, that surely is a good thing.

On reflection

Guns for longboards

The United States is awash with guns. In 2008, as Barack Obama took the presidential oath, firearms outnumbered people for the first time – now the ratio stands at an estimated 357 to 317 million. Every year, over 32,000 Americans die by the gun, making the US by far the most violent developed country. Gun deaths have become so routine that an under-26 is now more likely to be killed by a bullet than in a car crash. And while mass shootings grab the headlines, it’s everyday killings that silently pile up the bodycount. In San Diego, churches, the police and skaters have come together to tackle the problem: drop a gun, no questions asked, and get a gift card or longboard in return.

It’s a chilly December morning in Southeastern San Diego. Once, this part of town was a byword for deprivation and violence. But things are changing: a modern tram whizzes past affordable houses being built, and where once booze shops dispensed liquid amnesia from behind iron bars, a community centre has risen, complete with a parade of family restaurants and a Starbucks.

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Police keep notes on guns but ask no questions. Photo: Larry Johnson

Despite the ungodly hour, the Bryco Center – a brownfield site outside a warehouse – is humming with activity. On the parking lot, a local TV transmission van marks the spot like a beacon; nearby a journalist (pretty blonde, tight jeans) is already interviewing the assembled notables. At the moment, she’s talking to the imposing figure of the Reverend Gerald Brown – a US marine-turned-pastor, he speaks on behalf of the United African-American Ministerial Action Council.

The San Diego Gun Buyback started with a tragic killing, recalls Brown, and even as he recalls the bloody event, his baritone soothes the soul: “In 2008, two of our kids, Monique Palmer and Mike Taylor, got shot in a random act of gang violence. They were just fifteen. Now sadly, this wasn’t the first time something like this happened. So usually, the community comes together and collects money to help with the funeral. But my predecessor came up with a new idea. He said, let’s do something constructive with all that money: let’s use it to get rid of some of those guns that kill our children. He put a call in to the District Attorney and asked if he would match the amount raised by the community. The DA agreed, and so we had our first Gun Buyback. Since then, we’ve had one every year – and so far we’ve taken around 1,450 firearms out of circulation – and today we want to add to that number.”

So, what’s the connection with skateboarding?

“Right now, skateboarding is the thing for kids”, Brown smiles. “Back when I was young, we used to have bikes, but now kids use skateboards to get around – you see them everywhere. Skateboards are light, they’re easy to carry, you can take them on the bus or the trolley. So by offering skateboards as well as gift vouchers, we hope that kids will bug their parents to come here and trade in an unwanted gun for a longboard. It makes a great present too, with Christmas just around the corner.”

As Brown speaks, a police SUV swoops by and parks emphatically like an automotive exclamation mark. The legend “CHIEF 1” on its bonnet proclaims that the wiry woman behind the wheel is San Diego’s top cop, Shelley Zimmermann. She high-fives the Reverend, as if merely arriving on the scene were an occasion to be celebrated. If she’s worried about an ongoing controversy over the shooting an unarmed, mentally-ill man by one of her officers, she’s not showing it today.

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Shelley Zimmermann thinks the Gun Buyback is a great example of community policing. Photo: Larry Johnson

“This event is a great example of community policing”, explains the Chief, who – despite her sweet and winning smile – has been far quicker to fire police officers than her predecessor.

“What you see here is different sections of the community coming together to tackle gun crime – the local church, anti-crime initiatives and the skater community. We, the police, are only here to facilitate the event, making sure it is secure and that the guns are kept and destroyed safely. We ask no questions, we’re not interested where a gun came from, whether it’s legal or not, who’s turning it in.”

What if one of the guns was used in a crime? Wouldn’t your no-questions-asked-approach mean that you’re effectively destroying evidence?

Zimmermann is unperturbed. “We don’t run any tests on the guns we collect – all we do is note down registration numbers. So yes, if a number is flagged on the system, we take another look at that gun. If it’s not flagged or the serial number has been removed, we destroy the gun. Even if it was in fact used in a gun crime, at least now it will be out of circulation.”

I’d love to talk more to Shelley, to find out what it was like when she infiltrated drug cartels and prostitution rings in her nine years as undercover agent. But there’s no time, the TV journalist is already hovering and I move on.

Stacking box-fresh longboards onto a display  is Dennis Martinez, a fifty-something tough guy who, with his imperial beard, looks like Napoleon III in streetwear. Once a champion skater, he turned addict and troublemaker, then kicked the habit. A pastor now, he ministers to the imprisoned, runs a faith-based rehab and orchestrates “Off the Streets”, a youth diversion programme designed to discourage kids from pursuing a delinquent life.

Dennis is hard to pin down; for days, I’ve hunted and harried him without success, always a step behind. His phone is ringing all the time – one minute he dashes off to watch his 13-year-old daughter’s school play, the next he’s troubleshooting at his sober house (a client doesn’t want to take his drugs test), then he’s rushing to hear the deathbed confession of a man succumbing to his gunshot wounds.

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From left to right: Prison pastor Dennis Martinez, Harvey Hawks and Neil Carver.            Photo: Ariana Drehsler

“I’m not against the Second Amendment Right to bear arms”, says Martinez, “especially with what happened in San Bernardino. But we want to get unsecured, unwanted firearms off the streets so they don’t fall into the wrong hands. Gangsters target the homes of old people for burglaries, they follow unsuspecting victims home from shooting ranges, and that’s how a lot of guns that are later used in crimes get into circulation. An event like this really helps to make the community safer.”

That is Lisa Ortiz’s hope too. Clutching her lapdog, Lisa has come along to watch the gun buyback on behalf of Mothers with a Message – a tragic club uniting mums whose kids have killed or been killed. Their mission is to speak to at-risk youth and prisoners of the grief a mother feels when a child is murdered or locked up. As a result, they hope, young people will make better choices for their lives.

“Chico was my daughter’s dog, and now she’s gone, I carry him wherever I go”, says Lisa.  “He’s all I have left. He makes me feel closer to her.” The snaggletoothed pet looks contented in Ms Ortiz’ arms, exuding a cheerfulness at odds with his owner’s forlorn air. Ms Ortiz’ daughter, Marcella Peraza, was killed at a birthday party six and a half years ago – by Christoper Sanchez, the young man who had taken her there. According to police, Sanchez had left the party after getting into a fight, then returned around 2:30am and began shooting into a crowd of guests outside the house. A stray bullet ricocheted off a car’s windscreen wiper and hit Marcella, who was running for her life, in the back.

“Marcella was my only daughter”, said Ms Ortiz in court at the time. “Before her life was taken, she gave me so much love and happiness. She had grown from my daughter to my companion. Marcella was young, charismatic and beautiful  Without Marcella, life is empty, confusing and I look forward to nothing, except being with her when I die.”


Liza Ortiz lost her daughter Marcella to a shooting. Photo: Ariana Drehsler

The judge convicted Sanchez of first degree murder, sentencing him to 85 years to life. To add to the tragedy, Sanchez was later shot dead by prison guards during a riot. His head was so badly injured the undertakers had to remodel his skull, his mother, Sonya Veregas, tells me, her ears tearing up.

“And so I had to bury my son in a beanie.”

Six years on, there has been some healing. Through Mothers with a Message, Lisa and Sonya – who used to fight each other in court – have built a friendship based on their shared pain and hope for the future. Where once they cried in their own separate pain, they share laughter together.

While we speak, Martinez’ fellow pastor Larry Johnson – tall, bespectacled, white beard, of austere bearing  – is tirelessly filming. Now he’s trained his lens onto two men exchanging jokes: the taller one in the ponytail and baseball cap is Neil Carver, the other – short, innocuous-looking – is 70s skating legend Harvey Hawks – a man whose life illustrates how an outing with a gun can turn into a tragedy at the twitch of a finger.

On a summer’s afternoon in 1986, the smiling chap before me was a dangerous man: drunk, angry, and in possession of a shotgun. He came from a massive row with his ex; driving down the highway, he got into an altercation with a van. The family in the van were rushing their son to hospital, who had had a motorbike accident – Hawks may well have misinterpreted their hurry for aggression. He pulled his weapon, which was on the backseat, and fired it whilst still driving. The shotgun slug – a single bullet devastating at short range – killed off-duty policewoman Patricia Faye Dwyer and gravely injured her friend, Wendy Varga.

“I didn’t know what had happened until four days later, when the police came to arrest me and told me I had killed someone. When they did, I had a bottle of Coors in my hand. I knew that moment that I would have to change my life.” Hawks sobered up, served 26 years in prison (nine years in excess of his sentence), and reformed. Now Hawks works with Johnson and Martinez, and puts his freedom to good use by fighting gun crime.

“Every day, I regret what happened”, explains Hawks, “I always think of the wonderful woman whose life I took. Its something I can never undo, but every day, I can at least do something to make amends. I do it by being part of this project. We can all be emotionally off-balance at times. But if people didn’t have access to a firearm when they’re angry, they wouldn’t use it. So anything we can do to get a firearm off the streets, that’s our goal.”


Hawks signs a longboard. Photo” Ariana Drehsler

Unlike Martinez, Hawks thinks the Second Amendment right to bear arms is outdated.

“The Second Amendment was written when people used to hunt for food, when we had no standing army, and when we’d just fought a war against a foreign force. Not only that, weapons were so much more primitive. Now the situation has completely changed. The assault weapons we have today or so powerful, it would have been unthinkable back then.”

Neil Carver – surfer dude, designer, accidental activist – agrees. He’s lived in Venice, LA, since it was a grotty slum where gunpowder mingled with the sea breeze in the air. When primary school children and their teachers were massacred at Sandy Hook, Carver felt he had to act.


“When I saw these primary school kids being shot, my wife and I were horrified. I was  wondering, what could I do to make a difference? Then I thought, maybe I can turn guns into longboards. To give a kid in a household that had a gun before a skateboard is to plant a seed that offers meaning during those difficult years of adolescence.”

For Neil, skateboarding isn’t just a sport, or a way to get around: it’s a way of life, a mindset.

“I’ve heard from skaters over and over again how skateboarding saved them from their circumstances. At the most basic level, a skateboard is a form of transportation. This idea, to ‘transport oneself’ is not only a literal way to get some distance from your immediate surroundings, but a metaphor for how a skater can immerse themselves in a different reality while they focus on the act of skating. Since so much of the pressure and danger of gun violence is geographic, it’s an empowering act to create a different context, one that we make for ourselves. So, like swords to ploughshares, we should turn guns into skateboards. Even if one skateboard helped prevent just one act of violence, it would be worth the effort.”

Getting the first longboard exchange off the ground wasn’t easy, but after doggedly pursuing the LAPD, Carver took part in a gun buyback in San Pedro. After that, Neil contacted Michael Brooke, who runs Longboarding for Peace, an international movement of skater activists fighting for peace and justice as far afield as Palestine. It was Brooke who got Neil in touch with the Hawks and Martinez – now they all work together, hoping to take the concept to other troubled spots in California, and to encourage people all over the US to follow suit.


Photo: Larry Johnson

By now, the exchange is underway. There’s a fascinating array of rides – from bog-standard family carriers to Harleys and vintage cars. Not everybody wants to give their name, but most are happy to talk. It quickly turns out that turning up here is a convenience and an act of prudence, not necessarily an anti-gun statement. Jeffrey, astride on a gleaming silver Vespa, brings a gun from the Korean war. Having inherited it from an uncle, he’s long wondered how he could get rid of it – this event was the perfect opportunity. Jen, a bubbly Chinese-American, winds down the window of her SUV and tells me she’s dropping off an old gun she’s just replaced with a new and better one. A pensioner tells me he has cancer and doesn’t want to leave a gun behind when he’s gone. Then there’s an old black lady in her Sunday best and a white, immaculately-kept 1970’s Cadillac. Aged 91, she too thinks the time has come to dispose of her gun. Abraham, 21, came in a beat-up sports car with his mate, dropping off an old “Jack Sparrow gun”, but Harvey tells me that people get killed by antique guns all the time. “From the day a gun is manufactured, it’s lethal even after a hundred years”, he says – a sobering thought. Listening to people, it seems guns are everywhere: one man has found his in a car park, another in flat after a tenant had moved out. Most people opt for the gift vouchers (amounting to $100 or $50, depending on the gun). The longboards (which cost $220 each) usually go to parents and grandparents. José Abados is one of them.

“As a landlord, I have a special permit to carry a gun. But now my son is getting older, I’m really worried that he’s going to find it and hurt himself, or us. So it’s much better to give him a longboard instead.”

At the end of the event, forty longboards have been given away, in addition to $200,000 worth of gift vouchers donated by the County Sheriff. The Gun Buyback has taken 240 guns, among them two AK47’s, two Uzis and a .410 shotgun, which is now illegal. A handsome loot, but still a drop in the ocean: in 2012, one million prospective gun-buyers applied for criminal background in California alone – and every time there’s a mass shooting, there’s a new rush for firearms.

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242 firearms destined for the smelter. Photo: Larry Johnson

As we wrap up, I ask Reverend Brown for his verdict. He says he’s happy, but when he thinks of the bigger picture, doesn’t he lose faith at what seems a losing struggle?

“Not at all”, he says, examining the stack of doomed weapons piled up in a police van. “Each one of these does a lot of damage, and though we’ll never know, I’m sure we’ve saved some lives today.”


On reflection

While you looked to Brussels, you were being conned at home


A recent poll on the EU referendum shows that the fight between in and out is a struggle between the generations. If the old had their way, we’ll be out – let the young decide, and we stay in.  “Outers” would have as believe that the EU is is a relic past its sell-by date, but the young, who have the future ahead of them – and have to live the longest with the consequences of the referendum –   do not agree. Perhaps they sense instinctively that when we debate the EU, we’re debating the wrong thing.

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Splitters like Nigel Farage and Boris Johnson are like the conman who points to the sky telling you to look at the bird while using the distraction to pickpocket your wallet. Take accountability. Tory has-beens (and never-weres) like Michael Howard rail about the EU’s unelected Eurocrats and civil servants. At the same time, they fawn before the monarchy and support an unelected House of Lords: where is their thirst for democracy at home? The EU has its flaws – but with this referendum, electors get their say. That’s accountability.

The EU is a nanny state determining the curvature of our bananas and banning prawn cocktail crisps, claims Boris Johnson. And yet, we drive on the left, have funny, three-pronged plugs, and are free to munch prawn cocktail crisps to our hearts’ content. The most widely spoken language in the EU isn’t French or German, but English. We have – and will keep – our own currency. Britain is still gloriously, sometimes incomprehensibly, different.

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Sometimes fact-checking is just as easy as walking into a cornershop

Which is not to say that we aren’t oppressed by countless rules, sometimes petty, sometimes draconian. Recently, a school in Lancashire has banned birthday cakes, to avoid children suffering from allergies feeling left out. Anybody going out for a drink on a Friday night has to comply to a plethora of licensing rules enforced by grumpy bouncers: stand behind the rope, leave drinks inside when going for a smoke, take off hats, show ID, have pictures taken – the list goes on. We have more CCTV cameras per man, woman and child than any other country on earth, making us the most spied-on people on the planet. A motorist whose car tax is just one day overdue may have their car towed and crushed at once. David Cameron reserves the right to execute Britons by drone without a trial. These are all home-made impositions and infringements, yet you will wait in vain to hear Boris and Nigel complain.

The sovereignty argument is equally feeble. Neither the EU nor the United Nations nor even the will of its own population have stopped Britain from going to war in Iraq. British sovereignty is exercised more freely than that of most countries in the world. At the same time, our government is compromising control over strategically important industries and functions: nuclear power stations are built by the Chinese and GCHQ, our spying apparatus, has been at the beck and call of America’s NSA – without Parliament ever debating the issue. Still, Boris and Nigel don’t care. A 1984-style superstate is all right by them, as long as it’s homemade.


“Yo, Blair!” – Britain exercises its sovereignty

Finally, immigration. Yes, we have seen an influx of European citizens, just like the Costa del Sol has become a British retirement home. We are near full employment. Wages in some sectors are low, but our government does nothing to enforce, let alone raise, the minimum wage, nor does it do anything to help employees better their conditions through collective bargaining. Writing from London, as I do, I am not so much exercised by Polish labourers sleeping three to a room but Russian and Chinese plutocrats who buy up every morsel of the capital, making it impossible to rent or even own a home here. There is a housing shortage, we hear, and yet we see before our own eyes luxury apartments being built – condominiums which are bought off-plan by foreign tycoons and then left empty as investments.


No housing crisis there: Boris Johnson’s New London.

What about terrorists sneaking into the country on EU passports, though? Other European countries have at least just as much to fear from terrorists with British passports (Jihadi John, “The Beatles”) as we have from Euro-Bombers. Home-grown terrorism is a shared problem, why not tackle it with our allies, sharing intelligence across borders? And if the existing passport controls are not enough, if we want to deny EU citizens entry, then we must also expect to have the very same rules applied to us as we fly to Prague, Paris or Berlin.

All over Europe there is concern about fugitives “invading” the continent. There are many arguments to be had on this question. Angela Merkel’s approach – to seek peace in Syria and come to an agreement with Turkey, paying Istanbul to prevent refugees from crossing into Greece – requires every bit of statecraft she can muster. It may or may not succeed. But no country has yet been forced to accept refugees against their will – even though an equitable distribution would make sense. Austria has unilaterally imposed of maximum quota of 80 asylum seekers per day. Hungary and other Balkan states have closed their borders. These are all controversial moves. But none of them required these countries to leave the Union. It shows that the anti-refugee rhetoric is baseless: Britain can protect its borders from war refugees. After all, Britain is still polishing its Second World War-halo, absolving the current generation, living in unprecedented wealth, from any moral imperative to help those who have lost all.


A seld-obsessed Britain has excused itself from the arduous slog of leadership in a complicated, fast-moving world


Now on the economy. Outers dream of free trade agreements with India and China. Would this help British workers, or merely see their jobs outsourced to Bangalore at an even faster rate than today. We already trade with the world outside Europe, and very successfully so. Take a look at the automotive industry: Britain in the EU now produces more cars than ever. Indian-owned Jaguar Land Rove sells record numbers in China, as do German-owned Rolls-Royce and Bentley. Equally, Dyson (which moved production from Wiltshire to Malaysia) is doing a roaring global trade – as is our aerospace and arms industry, our academic sector and our creative industries – not to mention our financial services sector. Britain as a member of the EU has built a competitive economy of truly global reach. There is no economic case for leaving, but every reason to stay.


Besties: Nigel and Vlad

Finally, a word on geo-politics. Vladimir Putin must be cackling into his tea every time a Tory blowhard agitates against Brussels. More and more, the US expects that Europe – the EU – grapple with the problems on its doorsteps. Russia already has Britain in her sights – for harbouring anti-Putin exiles, and pointing the finger of blame at the Kremlin for the Litvinenko murder. If Britain were on its own, Putin would let his thirst for vengeance free rein. Not only that, in leaving the EU, we would weaken Europe just at a time when it is one of the few powers standing up to Russia’s imperialist drive.We’d not only backstab Europe in its hour of need, but also betray our own national interest.

Not everything in the EU is perfect. But whatever weaknesses the Union has, they are all fixable. The US, China, Russia and India are all set to shape the 21st century to their advantage. Unified, Europe can be an equal player. If we break away now, future generations will not forgive us.

On reflection

Why David Bowie is like cocaine to me

While I’d never wish to disparage all of my lovely, intelligent, creative and cultured friends for whom Bowie was an inspiration, both artistically and personally, I am glad to find at least one writer who seems composed in the face of the great man’s passing. It’s no disrespect, just that Bowie was like cocaine to me. I know the funny white granules must be amazing, because everybody tells me so, but the stimulant never really set my brain on fire. Just like I could never imagine purchasing the drug from a dealer, but snort a line out of courtesy, finding it amusing and sociable, I’d never put up a Bowie poster on my bedroom wall, but still love singing along to Major Tom, Starman and Heroes when someone else played them.


Note: wearing exuberant clothes as a man doesn’t make you gay. Conversely, being gay doesn’t mean wearing exuberant clothes, or even being having a sense of style.

I accept this numbness as a comgenital condition, for better or worse.
In similar fashion, I have never felt Bowie somehow gave me permission to be gay, because I never remembered him demonstrating his love to another man, or even his delight in the male physique. My heroes at the time were Tchaikovsky, Baldwin, Mercury, Mapplethorpe and Wilde, who were true to themselves in much less forgiving times than the sexually liberated space Bowie inhabited, or, in the case of Mercury, were really properly out there.

All of this means no disrespect, I hasten to add.

I’ll try and listen to all the Bowie songs my lovely friends have posted and hopefully gain an education and a deeper appreciation in the process – perhaps it’s not too late for my heart to be truly moved.

By the way, I do think it’s impossible for any recently departed to get any decent shuteye in the afterlife when people shout RIP every five minutes, which I imagine is like annoyingly your coffin being nudged by excitable mourners. If you want the dead to rest in peace, will ya stop crying RIP the whole bloody time?

So, farewell then,
David B,
You were loved by many
Maggie Thatcher must be spinning in her outsourced grave
Ha, ha.
Maybe you are smiling too, up above –
Eternal Starman in the sky.

On reflection, Reportage

AA celebrates its 80th birthday in Atlanta

by Alfred Rinaldi

additional interviews by Rhett Palmer

Downtown Atlanta is crowded today, so crowded that traffic is coming to a standstill. Blinking in the July sun, a never-ending steam of people is heading towards the concrete complex of the Georgia World Congress Center, ambling past a three-piece band playing jaunty N’awlins jazz. Everyone in the throng seems to wear a lanyard and a smile. In bold letters, their name tags read Jane M., Tim B., Brandy R., Renata H., but nowhere is there any indication what they’re here for.


Most of them are white, plenty are older. There are veteran bikers with straggly beards, parading years of rebellion in faded body art, and college kids in trendy clothes, the hopeful glow of youth on their faces. And everywhere, volunteer stewards – whose neon-green vests read “Happy, Joyous, Free” – welcome the crowds. For the uninitiated, it’s impossible to guess that the 60,000 people gathered here have come celebrate the 80th birthday of Alcoholics Anonymoys, the Twelve Step fellowship that has helped them to stop drinking.


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Selfie magnet: a bagpiper underlines AA’s international reach

The International Convention – AA’s fourteenth since 1950 – kicks off with a giant meeting at the Georgia Dome football stadium. The packed audience eagerly awaits the moment when an African-American woman in her fifties steps in front of the microphone, her image beamed onto giant screens. “My name is Stefanie M”, she exclaims, “and I’m an alcoholic.” It’s not a confession – it’s a declaration. The crowd greets with cheers, whooping and applause. For twenty minutes, the trade unionist, who has been sober since 1990, tells the story of her life, or – in AA parlance, “shares her experience, strength and hope”. Like all AA-“shares”, it follows the same format: the build-up of addiction (“what we were like”), turning point (“what happened” – usually a low point AA’s call “bottom”),  and a new, sober life (“what we’re like now”).

Today, stories like this are told in meetings all over the world, from Iran to Malaysia, from Honduras to China. AA counts approximately two million members, is present in 173 countries, and has translated its basic text “Alcoholics Anonymous” into 69 languages (the latest being Twi for Uganda). It’s a remarkable success for a formula that was stitched together by two barely sober alcoholics with an eclecticism fans call inspired genius, and its opponents unscientific quackery.


Bill W

Bill Wilson co-wrote “Alcoholics Anonymous”, also known as “the Big Book”

William Griffith Wilson – known as Bill W – was a stockbrocker who had tried time and again to stop drinking, never with any lasting success. During the dying days of prohibition, Wilson was necking three-and-a-half pints of cheap moonshine a day, living off the meagre earnings of his wife Lois, who worked at a department store. Time and again, Wilson solemnly resolved to stop drinking, and yet, he always fell off the wagon sooner or later. Baffled and demoralised, Wilson checked himself into Towns Hospital, an upscale clinic catering to New York’s upper crust inebriates (his well-off brother-in-law footed the bill: in today’s money, Towns charged around £750 per day).

There, Wilson met Dr Silkworth, a neurologist who had become convinced that alcoholism was not rooted in a moral failing or weakness of character, but a physical illness that’s triggered by the ingestion of alcohol in any quantity, no matter how small. Control was impossible, said Silkworth; only complete abstinence could arrest the progression of what he termed a disease. In his definition, alcoholism was “an obsession of the mind that condemns one to drink, and an allergy of the body that condemns one to die.” To Wilson, Silkworth’s ideas were revelatory. They made perfect sense to him, but even though Wilson took on board the mantra that “the first drink does the damage”, he could not resist his cravings for long.

The second element came in the unlikely shape of an old drinking buddy, Ebby Thacher, who called on Wilson out of the blue. Getting ready for a booze-up, Wilson was surprised to hear instead that Thacher had “got religion” and stopped drinking – a joyful message Thacher was passing on to his old friend. Wilson was enthused. Could this be the cure? Apparently not, because soon afterwards, he embarked on yet another alcoholic spree, ending up in Towns for the fourth time. Then, the legendary AA miracle occurred. Drying out in his hospital bed, Wilson reported an ecstatic, “white light” spiritual experience during which he felt the presence of God quite clearly. “Then”, he recounted, “came the blazing thought ‘You are a free man’”. This astonishing supernatural event not only left Wilson utterly convinced of God’s existence. It also gave him a profound sense and knowledge that he needed never drink again, that he was truly cured.


Dr. Bob Smith

But even this miracle seemed to wear off over time, as Wilson started to feel vulnerable. On a failed business trip to Akron, Ohio, he found himself alone and defeated in a strange city with a whole, empty weekend ahead. Bored and restless, he was tempted to go for a ginger ale at the hotel bar. Realising he was heading for a relapse, Wilson had an idea: if only he could only find another alcoholic to talk to – one who wanted to stop, but couldn’t – he might be able to talk himself out of his craving. And who knows, he might even be able to help the other person stop. Instead of heading for the bar, Wilson looked up the church directory hanging in the hotel lobby and called a minister at random, a Reverend Tunks, asking if he knew of any “drunks” he could speak to. The minister, unencumbered by any data protection qualms, readily gave Wilson ten leads to call. Wilson dialled every number until he was put in touch with Henrietta Seiberling, a member of the Goodyear tyre dynasty. And it just so happened that she knew a prospect, local surgeon Dr Robert Smith. “Dr. Bob” reluctantly agreed to meet Wilson, but only to please his wife. Anxious to drink, he gave warning that his meeting with Wilson was only going to last fifteen minutes. But as it turned out, the two men hit it off and spoke into the night, forming a friendship that lasted until Smith’s death of cancer in 1950. Together, Smith and Wilson came up with the idea of starting up a meeting that was exclusively devoted to alcoholics to spread their message. The year was 1935, and this Akron meeting, held in a school hall and still continuing today, was the beginning of AA.
Back at the Georgia Dome, AA’s (anonymous) press officer – who looks so healthy as if he’d never even looked at a shot glass – explains a central AA tenet. “Bill and Dr. Bob discovered that one alcoholic can’t stay sober on his own. But when they shares their experience, strength and hope with one another, they can overcome their disease”.

We are getting for the next speaker, who’s a bit of a surprise. “My name is Michael B and I’m a deaf-mute, gay, Jewish slut”, comes a voice from the speakers as a bald, bespectacled man in his forties signs on screen. “But that’s not why I’m here. I’m here because I’m an alcoholic.” Cheering and applause. Peppering his speech with witticisms, aperçus and gags, the writer from California recounts his “journey”; like other speakers he extols the healing medicine of the twelve steps and warns the audience against using poppers, a solvent popular in gay circles. One speakers follows the next: black, white, young, lesbian, straight, the formula remains the same. Time and again at this convention, alcoholics share their drinking and recovery stories. Time and again, they laugh at their most tragic and embarrassing memories only to be hushed by a moving anecdote just a few seconds later. A grey-haired lesbian speaks in memory of those of her AA-friends who died of AIDS in the 1980’s, earning a spontaneous standing ovation. Then there’s a cancer patient who has put off her surgery specially to come to the conference. She finds strength in the fellowship: “You are all miracles”, she tells the audience, “and in the next few weeks, I will need a miracle.”

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AA is big on God. Here: an AA member displays his dice

Buzzwords like “miracle”, “grace” and “gratitude” abound. Then, of course, there’s God – the non-denominational “higher power” which, according to AA, enables even the most inveterate drunkard to leave that can of Diamond White, that bottle of Pinot Grigio, on the shelf – “just for today”.

AA may count atheists and agnostics among its members, but God – which AA says can be anything the individual chooses to conceive – remains the most controversial ingredient of the programme.

Like all questions of belief, there is no way to settle the argument. But according to AA members, a “spiritual awakening” can be experienced, even engineered with the aid of the programme’s twelve steps: spiritual practices inspired by a 1930’s Christian movement, the “Oxford Group”. Whether others believe it or not, to AA’s, their own stories are indisputable testimony.
Carol Lynne, an ex-reservist from Vancouver who has been sober 14 years, hardly comes across as a religious zealot. On the contrary, the 44-year-old speaks about the application of the steps with analytical detachment.

“It’s for me primarily around our First Step. Just coming to terms with the fact that my drinking was completely out of control and that my life was unmanageable, which is in essence our First Step, was the beginning of everything. I thought I had bad luck, I thought I drank because I had problems. I thought if I could solve all my problems, if my life was better organised and less stressful, had less chaos in it, I didn’t need to or want to drink. And through that First Step, I had an opportunity to learn that just possibly it was my drinking that was creating all these problems, and that I didn’t seem very successful in stopping on my own. Like many AA members, I tried alls sorts of methods to stop drinking. Alcoholics Anonymous wasn’t my first choice, but everything failed except Alcoholics Anonymous.”

“I know there’s lots of people who drink safely, who make reckless decisions and grow out of it. I don’t really think that’s what Alcoholics Anonymous is for. I think it’s for people who in their experience, their drinking is creating consequences they’re not prepared to live with. And each one of us need to decide for ourselves if we’ve reached that threshold and want to reach out for help.”

“The other steps”, Carol Lynne continues, “have been critical for me in terms of just changing how I think and how I react to life. And you couple that with the the fellowship, a community of people, who are working towards the same goals, living in a similar way, having support of the fellowship. So for me personally, both of those things have helped me stay sober.”

AA has highly charismatic speakers with devoted followings. One of the biggest – and controversial – names in AA-land is Clancy. Aged 87, he is idolised by his disciples from the “Pacific Group”, which he bills as the largest AA group in the world. At the ornate, 19th century “Tabernacle”, which has played host to Guns N’ Roses, Robbie Williams and Prince, the AA-godfather – who is known as a no-nonsense taskmaster – regales his listeners with vignettes from his misspent youth. Revelling in curses and salty speech, his voice gravelly like that of a white Louis Armstrong, the one-time sailor recounts his misadventures and failings with superb comedic talent. Sober since 1958, he is now in charge of LA’s Midnight Mission, which is dedicated to straightening out “skid row drunks” with a dose of tough AA-love. Clancy hardly needs complain of lacking interest: two hours before he’s due to speak, people are already standing in line. Young people especially seem to really enjoy what the old-timer has to say.

Right at the end, Clancy gets serious. “You aren’t an alcoholic because alcohol is your problem”, he explains. “You’re an alcoholic because alcohol is your answer.” And then, a striking statement: “The solution lies in one alcoholic talking to another to reduce his feeling of being different enough to take an action he doesn’t yet believe in.”

It’s an assertion that gets one of the loudest claps. AA members swear by memorable phrases, aphorisms and slogans: maxims such as “First things first”, “Easy does it”, “Live and let live” are AA currency. They’re designed to make that which is vague and confusing simple and actionable, providing a manual for AA members to manage their lives on a daily basis. “Early in my AA sobriety”, writes Mel B, who has been sober since 1950, “I thought the slogans were a real turnoff. That’s because I had little confidence in anything that seemed so simple. The moralistic messages of the slogans also seemed trite and impractical (…) I’m happy to report that I stayed sober while something worked to change my views about the slogans. Today, they come across as simple but far-reaching statements of important principles.”

We would not be in America if there weren’t some kind of sell involved: the motion picture “Grace”, in which an attractive brunette overcomes her dipsomania, is hawked at fifteen bucks apiece. Elsewhere, there’s no shortage of merchandise either. Directly across the street from the “Tabernacle” is the “Sober Village”, an open air market where a plethora of mom-and-pop outfits deal in all manner of sobriety-related trinkets.

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The famously hospitable South

For the girls, there are T-shirts with the slogan “Spiritually Intoxicated” and “Sober Princess” (naturally in pink), for the tattooed bikers and grizzled ex-cons “Grateful I’m not Dead” and “Bill Wilson rode a Harley”. Other knick-knacks include sobriety medallions beautified with diamanté, healing and spiritual fridge magnets (“grace”, “wisdom”, “serenity”) and plenty of baubles based on the AA-emblem, an encircled triangle. There are even presentation boxes made of polished wood on offer, so that particularly devotional AA-members may keep their “Big Book” as if it were the Holy Bible. To lighten things up, there’s entertainment, too. The Tabernacle hosts a Sober Comedy Slam, the plays “Bill W and Dr Bob” and “Our Experience has taught us” and a gig by “Reckless in Vegas”. Then there’s Tom Sway, “San Francisco’s celebrated indie singer-songwriter” who “performs an evening of original music inspired by his recovery from alcoholism”. If that is really not enough, the organisers have laid on a Sober-Themed Muppet Show.

No conference would be complete without a night-time knees-up, and AA is no exception. At the gay and lesbian party in a hotel ballroom, the dance floor looks and feels just like that of any other club. The hideous carpet aside, nothing seems amiss: there’s electronic music, flashing lights and bodies writhing. The only difference is that the toilets are being used for their intended purpose and no-one is passing out, or falling over drunk. And that the bar only serves coffee and soft drinks – together with cookies, chocolate bars and pieces of “chicken-fried chicken” (we’re in the South, after all).

I catch up in the staircase with Orlando P, a 34-year-old from Detroit who works at a dental surgeon’s while building his modelling career. Raised by a pastor who condemned homosexuality, Orlando escaped to the gay scene, where he felt accepted. At the bars he visited, he found that alcohol and drugs helped him feel more at ease. After some years, he found he had become “a slave to drink”. Losing his driving licence for the third time, his lawyer warned him that he was a danger to himself. “He said I was going to hurt myself if I didn’t get some help, and I believed him.” The lawyer pointed Orlando to AA.

It was the start of a new, sober life. So, is the party over? What’s sober life like today? Does he still have fun – and how?

“It’s quite simply really. I changed my behaviour patterns and my friends. My friends are in the fellowship now, so I don’t go to places that I used to go, and I don’t do the things I used to do anymore. I go to meetings now. I meet before the meeting with my friends, and have coffee after the meetings. We may have dinner and things like that, so the time that I used to spend going to bars, I now use feeding my recovery, and I really don’t have any interest any more to be in bars.

“My dreams are on the forefront now. They fell by the wayside because alcohol took precedence over those things. And now that has been removed, the focus has shifted again to back onto my goals and the dreams that I had ten, fifteen years ago. And now I’m working on those things again as if I’d never left them. And that’s the beautiful thing about this programme, it’s given me my life back, it’s given me hope back and it’s given me freedom back, most importantly, to do what I want with my life and with my time. I’m not a slave to alcohol any more, I can get off work and do whatever I want to do and be productive.”

Orlando drove to Atlanta from a neighbouring state with five friends, but he knows at least 25 people from meetings at this convention. He and his sober crew love watching TV together at each other’s homes: Ru Paul’s Drag Race is a favourite. Since he gave up drink and drugs 18 months ago, Orlando has done things he never think he’d do. Like wearing a dress. A few months ago, at a gay AA convention in Myrtle Beach, he got dragged up to perform as Whitney Houston.

“The crowd loved it”, he smiles broadly, “they were eating that shit up.”

On the pavement outside, the streets are still thronged with people heading to their downtown hotels. A few yards up from the illuminated ferris wheel, an alcoholic from Scotland drones away on his bagpipe. The passing Americans, who’ll applaud anyone just for being from Idaho, think it’s awesome. Just when it seems that this circus could not get any madder, a Swiss man in a hat and moustache rustles in a bag, producing a variety of tubes which he assembles into a full-length alphorn. Then he plays a gentle tune as if he were on the foothills of the Matterhorn. It’s a sensory overload which must test the serenity of even the most determined water drinker.

I quickly hail a yellow cab and ask my driver what he makes of the whole shebang. “I have nothing but respect for these people”, he says. “All of these alcoholics have stopped denying their problem. You see, there’s a lot of denial out there. I’ve got so many friends and family members who drink too much, and they take drugs, but they won’t admit that it’s a problem. And in my street, there’s a woman living out of the garbage can. I tried to help her once and she got really angry. She doesn’t want anyone to help her, all she wants to drink. Do you know what she used to be? A federal judge.”
According to the 60,000 alcoholics at the Georgia Dome, even hers is not a hopeless case.



An edited version of this reportage was published in Delayed Gratification magazine